An Eyelash
Taylor
Henbane and Lily of the Valley
Night. Green， orange， blue. The red royal instrument. The yellow dress. Then a brass Buddha. Suddenly it lifted the brass eyelids and sap began to flow from it， from Buddha. Sap also from the yellow dress. Even in the mirror， drops of sap， and from the large bed and from the children"s bed and soon from myself... It is horror， mortally sweet horror！...
I woke up. Soft blue light， the glass of the walls， of the chairs， of the table was glimmering. This calmed me. My heart stopped palpitating. Sap！ Buddha！ How absurd！ I am sick， it is clear； I never saw dreams before. They say that to see dreams was a common normal thing with the ancients. Yes， after all， their life was a whirling carousel： green， orange， Buddha， sap. But we， people of today， we know all too well that dreaming is a serious mental disease. I...Is it possible that my brain， this precise， clean， glittering mechanism， like a chronometer without a speck of dust on it， is...？ Yes， it is， now. I really feel there in the brain some foreign body like an eyelash in the eye. One does not feel one"s whole body， but this eye with a hair in it； one cannot forget it for a second
The cheerful， crystalline sound of the bell at my head. Seven o"clock. Time to get up. To the right and to the left as in mirrors， to the right and to the left through the glass walls I see others like myself， other rooms like my own， other clothes like my own， movements like mine， duplicated thousands of times. This invigorates me； I see myself as a part of an enormous， vigorous， united body； and what precise beauty！ Not a single superfluous gesture， or bow， or turn. Yes， this Taylor was undoubtedly the greatest genius of the ancients. True， he did not come to the idea of applying his method to the whole life， to every step throughout the twenty-four hours of the day； he was unable to integrate his system from one o"clock to twenty-four. I cannot understand the ancients. How could they write whole libraries about some Kant and take only slight notice of Taylor， of this prophet who saw ten centuries ahead？
Breakfast was over. The hymn of the United State had been harmoniously sung； rhythmically， four abreast we walked to the elevators， the motors buzzed faintly， and swiftly we went down—down—down， the heart sinking slightly. Again that stupid dream， or some unknown function of that dream. Oh， yes！ Yesterday in the aero， then down—down！ Well， it is all over， anyhow. Period. It is very fortunate that I was so firm and brusque with her.
The car of the underground railway carried me swiftly to the place where the motionless， beautiful body of the Integral， not yet spiritualized by fire， was glittering in the docks in the sunshine. With closed eyes I dreamed in formulae. Again I calculated in my mind what was the initial velocity required to tear the Integral away from the earth. Every second the mass of the Integral would change because of the expenditure of the explosive fuel. The equation was very complex， with transcendent figures. As in a dream I felt， right here in the firm calculated world， how someone sat down at my side， barely touching me and saying， "Pardon." I opened my eyes.
At first， apparently because of an association with the Integral， I saw something impetuously flying into the distance—a head； I saw pink wing ears sticking out on the sides of it， then the curve of the overhanging back of the head， the double-curved letter S.
Through the glass walls of my algebraic world again I felt the eyelash in my eye. I felt something disagreeable， I felt that today I must...
"Certainly， please." I smiled at my neighbor and bowed.
I saw Number S-4711 glittering on his golden badge （that is why I associated him with the letter S， from the very first moment： an optical impression which remained unregistered by consciousness）. His eyes sparkled， two sharp little drills； they were revolving swiftly， drilling in deeper and deeper. It seemed that in a moment they would drill in to the bottom and would see something that I do not even dare to confess to myself...
That bothersome eyelash became wholly clear to me. S-was one of them， one of the Guardians， and it would be the simplest thing immediately， without deferring， to tell him everything！
"I went yesterday to the Ancient House..." My voice was strange， husky， flat—I tried to cough.
"That is good. It must have given you material for some instructive deductions."
"Yes...but...You see， I was not alone； I was in the company of I-，330， and then..."
"1-330？ You are fortunate. She is a very interesting， gifted woman； she has a host of admirers."
But he， too—then during the promenade...Perhaps he is even assigned as her he-Number！ No， it is impossible to tell him， unthinkable. This was perfectly clear.
"Yes， yes， certainly， very." I smiled， more and more broadly， more stupidly， and felt as if my smile made me look foolish， naked.