For those words went to his heart,till that he knew wherefore he was called so.Then Sir Launcelot went to the cross and found his helm,his sword,and his horse taken away.And then he called himself a very wretch,and most unhappy of all knights;and there he said:My sin and my wickedness have brought me unto great dishonour.For when I sought worldly adventures for worldly desires,I ever enchieved them and had the better in every place,and never was I discomfit in no quarrel,were it right or wrong.And now I take upon me the adventures of holy things,and now I see and understand that mine old sin hindereth me and shameth me,so that I had no power to stir nor speak when the holy blood appeared afore me.So thus he sorrowed till it was day,and heard the fowls sing:then somewhat he was comforted.But when Sir Launcelot missed his horse and his harness then he wist well God was displeased with him.
Then he departed from the cross on foot into a forest;and so by prime he came to an high hill,and found an hermitage and a hermit therein which was going unto mass.And then Launcelot kneeled down and cried on Our Lord mercy for his wicked works.So when mass was done Launcelot called him,and prayed him for charity for to hear his life.With a good will,said the good man.Sir,said he,be ye of King Arthur's court and of the fellowship of the Round Table?Yea forsooth,and my name is Sir Launcelot du Lake that hath been right well said of,and now my good fortune is changed,for I am the most wretch of the world.The hermit beheld him and had marvel how he was so abashed.Sir,said the hermit,ye ought to thank God more than any knight living,for He hath caused you to have more worldly worship than any knight that now liveth.And for your presumption to take upon you in deadly sin for to be in His presence,where His flesh and His blood was,that caused you ye might not see it with worldly eyes;for He will not appear where such sinners be,but if it be unto their great hurt and unto their great shame;and there is no knight living now that ought to give God so great thank as ye,for He hath given you beauty,seemliness,and great strength above all other knights;and therefore ye are the more beholding unto God than any other man,to love Him and dread Him,for your strength and manhood will little avail you an God be against you.
CHAPTER XX
How Sir Launcelot was shriven,and what sorrow he made and of the good ensamples which were shewed him.
THEN Sir Launcelot wept with heavy cheer,and said:
Now I know well ye say me sooth.Sir,said the good man,hide none old sin from me.Truly,said Sir Launcelot,that were me full loath to discover.For this fourteen year I never discovered one thing that I have used,and that may I now wite my shame and my disadventure.