In the home-light.
It was a scene--glowing almost as those evening pictures at Longfield.Those pictures,photographed on memory by the summer sun of our lives,and which no paler after-sun could have power to reproduce.Nothing earthly is ever reproduced in the same form.Isuppose Heaven meant it to be so;that in the perpetual progression of our existence we should be reconciled to loss,and taught that change itself is but another form for aspiration.Aspiration which never can rest,or ought to rest,in anything short of the One absolute Perfection--the One all-satisfying Good "IN WHOM IS NOVARIABLENESS,NEITHER SHADOW OF TURNING."
I say this,to excuse myself for thoughts,which at times made me grave--even in the happy home-light of John's study;where,for several weeks after the last incident I have recorded,the family were in the habit of gathering every evening.For poor Guy was a captive.The "mere trifle"had turned out to be a sprained foot,which happening to a tall and strong young man became serious.He bore his imprisonment restlessly enough at first,but afterwards grew more reconciled--took to reading,drawing,and society--and even began to interest himself in the pursuits of his sister Maud,who every morning had her lessons in the study.
Miss Silver first proposed this.She had evinced more feeling than was usual to her,since Guy's accident;showed him many little feminine kindnesses--out of compunction,it seemed;and altogether was much improved.Of evenings,as now,she always made one of the "young people,"who were generally grouped together round Guy's sofa--Edwin,Walter,and little Maud.The father and mother sat opposite--as usual,side by side,he with his newspaper,she with her work.
Or sometimes,falling into pleasant idleness,they would slip hand in hand,and sit talking to one another in an under-tone,or silently and smilingly watch the humours of their children.
For me,I generally took to my nook in the chimney-corner--it was a very ancient fire-place,with settles on each side,and dogs instead of a grate,upon which many a faggot hissed and crackled its merry brief life away.Nothing could be more cheery and comfortable than this old-fashioned,low-roofed room,three sides of which were peopled with books--all the books which John had gathered up during the course of his life.Perhaps it was their long-familiar,friendly faces which made this his favourite room,his own especial domain.
But he did not keep it tabooed from his family;he liked to have them about him,even in his studious hours.
So,of evenings,we all sat together as now,each busy,and none interrupting the rest.At intervals,flashes of talk or laughter broke out,chiefly from Guy,Walter,or Maud,when Edwin would look up from his everlasting book,and even the grave governess relax into a smile.Since she had learnt to smile,it became more and more apparent how very handsome Miss Silver was."Handsome"is,I think,the fittest word for her;that correctness of form and colour which attracts the eye chiefly,and perhaps the eye of men rather than of women;--at least,Mrs.Halifax could never be brought to see it.But then her peculiar taste was for slender,small brunettes,like Grace Oldtower;whereas Miss Silver was large and fair.
Fair,in every sense,most decidedly.And now that she evidently began to pay a little more attention to her dress and her looks,we found out that she was also young.
"Only twenty-one to-day,Guy says,"I remarked one day to Ursula.
"How did Guy know it?"
"I believe he discovered the wonderful secret from Maud.""Maud and her brother Guy have grown wonderful friends since his illness.Do you not think so?""Yes,I found the two of them--and even Miss Silver--as merry as possible,when I came into the study this morning.""Did you?"said the mother,with an involuntary glance at the group opposite.
There was nothing particular to observe.They all sat in most harmless quietude,Edwin reading,Maud at his feet,playing with the cat,Miss Silver busy at a piece of that delicate muslin-work with which young women then used to ornament their gowns.Guy had been drawing a pattern from it,and now leant back upon his sofa,shading off the fire with his hand,and from behind it gazing,as I had often seen him gaze lately,with a curious intentness--at the young governess.
"Guy,"said his mother (and Guy started),"what were you thinking about?""Oh,nothing;that is--"here,by some accident,Miss Silver quitted the room."Mother,come over here,I want your opinion.There,sit down--though it's nothing of the least importance."Nevertheless,it was with some hesitation that he brought out the mighty question,namely,that it was Miss Silver's birthday to-day;that he thought we ought to remember it,and give her some trifle as a present.
"And I was considering this large Flora I ordered from London,--she would like it extremely:she is so fond of botany.""What do you know about botany?"said Edwin,sharply and rather irrelevantly as it seemed,till I remembered how he plumed himself upon his knowledge of this science,and how he had persisted in taking Maud,and her governess also,long wintry walks across the country,"in order to study the cryptogamia."Guy vouchsafed no answer to his brother;he was too much absorbed in turning over the pages of the beautiful Flora on his knee.
"What do you say,all of you?Father,don't you think she would like it?Then,suppose you give it to her?"At this inopportune moment Miss Silver returned.
She might have been aware that she was under discussion--at least so much of discussion as was implied by Guy's eager words and his mother's silence,for she looked around her uneasily,and was about to retire.
"Do not go,"Guy exclaimed,anxiously.